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Sunday, June 12th, 2005
3:46 pm
i wanna run away to hollywood

rip my rearview mirror off

no looking back allowed

no turning back

once i get to hollywood

where no one knows my name

and no one knows my story

everybody goes to hollywood

people only go there cause it

feels so damn good

everything is better in hollywood

until the plastic smiles melt

and the clean white sand is washed away

and the stars fade into the blackness

and the hills come crashing down

on top of me

in hollywood

( love me forever)

3:45 pm
ashes to ashes
dust to dust
make me feel nothing
but cold hard lust

build me up
just to break me down
tie me up
throw me to the ground

seduce me
reduce me
rape me
sedate me

make me feel something
make me feel anything

just dont say you love me
i know you dont love me
and thats not what i need
to hear

( love me forever)

Monday, May 9th, 2005
7:41 pm
lying in bed
for hours on end
until night turns to day
until days turn to weeks
thinking of you
and your eyes
and your lips
wishing that you
would think of me too
bite my lip till it bleeds
wishing it was you
wishing you were here
wishing wishes came true
listening to our song
on repeat in my head
playing it loud
playing it out
clinging to the hope
that if i lay there for just long enough
maybe you'll think of me
maybe you'll dream of me
praying for just one last phone call
one last letter
i know it's useless
and maybe it's better
this way

(3 will/ love me forever)

Sunday, May 8th, 2005
9:57 pm
so many secrets and lies
hidden behind your metallic eyes
so many hearts have been tricked
by the perfection of your lips

so many times
i've wondered why
i can't seem to move on
so many times
i've sat here
listening to the same old song

( love me forever)

9:56 pm
you see the problem is
that neither one of us
is outspoken enough
to have what you'd call a
' ' r e a l f i g h t ' '

so we just sit there
silently contemplating
wondering
calculating
making up excuses
for each other
and ourselves

( love me forever)

9:48 pm
so many lost love letters
so many unreturned phone calls
desperate you, stupid me
one night
destroyed it all
took my innocence
it was over in a moment
but it lasted forever
in my head

now she crys
as she trys
to cover the mistake she made
impossible
shes in over her head
shes better off dead


so many forgotten friends
so many unimportant questions
anxious you, silly me
one night
destroyed it all
took our lives away
it was over in a moment
but it'll last a lifetime

catastrophe
catastrophe
someone please call 911
and save these kids
from each other
from themselves

(2 will/ love me forever)

Saturday, May 7th, 2005
2:08 pm - it's not like it was before..
my gun is fully loaded
and it's pointed toward your head
this is revenge
for every stupid word you said
for every time you picked me up
and then watched me crash and burn
when i pull the trigger
you'll know this suicide was earned
so be sure to thank yourself
when you attend your funeral
don't blame this on me
you did it to yourself


current mood: content

( love me forever)


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